Thursday, July 21, 2011

A Plea For some Sanity in my life !!!!

If we're growing, we're always going to be out of our comfort zone.

Something I am not still not loving in my life. Having a constant flow of lessons to be learned and learned again, I admit I often just want to go away and not have to do what is needed.
I am not good at change and I don't like being shown I need to change. It makes me feel like I am not good enough and also maybe I can not change. So there is a lot of fear there. I feel so alone these days, it has been very hard for me. I seem to be pushing everyone away. All my friends are pretty much gone, and my family is thru. Having cancer is straining to all involved and I don't know how to change that. I wish I could . I wish I was not a burden to anyone . That is a horrible feeling. I would like to be enjoying my life , not fearing for it each day. God help me.

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